Well, dear watchers, I've finally reached that point in my life where leaving DeviantART is becoming a more and more prominent thought in my mind.
As you are no doubt aware, it's been a long time since I've uploaded anything (and the fact that I typed "followers" before remembering this isn't Tumblr and then struggling to remember that the term here is "watchers" is definitely proof of my inactivity here). I really feel like there's nothing more for me here, and at the moment the only thing keeping me here is my Nuzlocke. I promised you guys and myself that I would see it through, and I fully intend to no matter how long that takes. But as far as my general art goes, even outside of dA I've been drawing less and less frequently. I don't know if I've just hit an unusually long rough patch, I'm just starting to lose my passion for it, or what's going on.
I owe so much to the dA community and to the friends I've made here. I'll always consider joining this site one of the best decisions of my life, because it helped me grow so much as an artist. In particular, I owe a lot to BreezePleeze
Breeze's speedpaints on Youtube showed me that digital art was very possible, and I learned from those videos and got better and better at MS Paint. I began to learn just what I could do, and I started to develop the drawing style you know and
hopefully love today. Not to mention stumbling upon a link to her dA page is what prompted my spur-of-the-moment decision to join the site in the first place.
Blaze was my first friend here, and his offer to join Team EverBlaze is what made a simple doodle of what I wanted to look like as a Pokemon into the OC that became my identity for the 5 years I've been here. The RPs and iScribble drawing sessions helped my creativity branch out as I created new characters and concepts.
I eventually found the group of friends I spent most of my time online with, and they became a sort of family for me. I learned a lot from each of them, and I like to think that I've had my own influence on at least a few of them too.
Sappiness aside, the simple point here is that dA was definitely a big part of my life. I joined when I was 13 years old and in 8th grade, and now I'm a freshman in college who is currently stirring her hot chocolate with a plastic butter knife because she doesn't want to go spend money on more spoons. So leaving seems almost wrong after watching myself grow and mature as both an artist and as a person here, but, as previously stated, I don't see anything else here for me. I feel like I've had my "peak," and now my drawing will either plateau, or improve but at a slower pace. Being in college, I just don't have time for drawing like I used to, so it's to be expected that I can't upload as often. But I also don't have the desire to upload. Which brings me back to my Nuzlocke...
Whether you guys believe me or not, I will finish that comic if it kills me. I've had people comment things along the lines of "it's been x days/weeks/months, guess you won't be finishing. lolbye unwatching." Firstly, it's flattering that I apparently have a comic that's considered good enough to be the sole reason for a watch. Secondly, if you feel like going out of your way to publicly point out that I'm not updating quickly enough to please you is going to make a difference, don't let the door hit you on the way out. I've previously stated that I made no promises to update quickly, only promises to update. Right now, the lack of drive to draw that I mentioned also applies to my comic. Occasionally I sketch a panel or two (so yes, progress is being made), but it's been a long time since I last sat down with the intention to draw out an entire page. I have no way of knowing when I'll be able to really draw again, but I do appreciate those of you who've stuck with me this far.
The issue now is what do I do if I want to delete this account but still give you guys the comic I promised? Right now I'm leaning toward deleting this account and setting up a separate one solely for uploading my Nuzlocke for you all. If I decide to do it I'll definitely let you guys know ahead of time so you can find the new account if you wish.
So yeah. You're a fantabulous human being if you cared enough to read all of this, and I hope actually are fantabulous enough to respect whatever decision I end up making.